I Lost The Game

Hah! I joke about it, but the truth is, I probably really could write a book.

I am now convinced that EVERYONE has something in their life that isn’t necessarily talked about. The questions I pose are this: How WILLING are you to talk about your life? Have you been willing to share your truth you with someone? Do you think you could live with someone and still not know their truth?

There is no doubt in my mind that we have some how come to believe that if we dare live our truth, others will hurt us. Not living our truth, however, we only hurt ourselves. And, no one can truly know me, truly know me, until I share my truth with them. Sadly, I think we have difficultly sharing and living or truth, not because it’s “difficult”, but rather, we find it “difficult” to disappoint or hurt others. And, we allow other’s reactions to influence us enough to doubt our own self; we allow ourselves to be fillied with doubt and criticism, even when unintended.

I’ve played the game of hiding my truth – what I think, what I feel, who I am. I lost that game when I lost myself.

If you only knew all of my truth, you may not believe me because you either haven’t asked, or I don’t believe in you enough to trust you with it. I know my truth, and that’s what counts. Iam the only one who really needs to know my truth.

Recently, I have been challenged with questions that ask me to respond with an honest heart. The question was, more or less, “What happens when I disappoint you? Will you still be my friend?”

After a good run, because that’s how I like to process, I came up with this. It’s not a matter of disappointment, because people will disappoint us. It’s not a matter of hurt, because that is part of living. The question I think should be asked is, “If I do this, will I disappoint myself? If I choose this, will I hurt myself?”

Live in your truth. Hurt will come. Disappointment will come. But your truth can only be lived by you.

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